• Guarding Beauty in the Dark: On ‘Custodians of Wonder’ and ‘The Man in the High Castle’

    There are two powerful moments in Amazon Prime’s alternate-history “what if Germany and Japan won World War II” show The Man in the High Castle that I think about a lot, especially in relation to current events.

    The first is in the sixth episode of season one (“Three Monkeys”). Frank, a laborer who also creates replicas of antique guns for wealthy buyers, is wracked with guilt and resentment after his sister and her kids were murdered by Japan’s secret police while he was being interrogated due to his girlfriend Juliana’s connection with the underground resistance. In distress, he goes to the home of a man named Mark, his sister’s former boss and a fellow closeted Jew who practices in secret with his kids despite Judaism being outlawed.

    Mark asks Frank if he’d be OK with them doing a prayer for his sister and her kids. “Losing people is one thing,” Mark says. “Not being allowed to grieve for them, well, that’s another.” He then performs the kaddish, a Jewish mourner’s prayer for the dead, which is intercut with scenes of Juliana’s covert resistance work. In a ramshackle, candlelit apartment, hearing words he doesn’t understand but feels deep in his bones, Frank is finally able mourn his immense loss.

    The other moment happens in the following episode (“Truth”), when Frank asks Mark why he chose to have kids despite the danger of being Jewish and continues to risk their lives practicing their faith. Their exchange:

    MARK: I don’t plan on dying, Frank. But you can’t live your life in fear. I was back east at the end of the war, in Boston. You had to see it to believe it. Overnight, lynch mobs were murdering Jews because suddenly we were less than human. Those of us who came out in one piece, we buried service weapons underground, well-wrapped in oil, and we vowed revenge. I got a life to lead, got kids to raise. And Hitler and the Nazis—I don’t care how it looks, they won’t last. One thing I realized about my people is we got a different sense of time. These may be dark years, but we’ll survive. We always do. You’ve just got to find something to hold on to.

    FRANK: Faith, you mean.

    MARK: Yeah, faith.

    FRANK: I don’t have any of that.

    MARK: Well, what about art? You’re supposed to be an artist. Why are you making fake guns?

    FRANK: Because no one wants to buy my art.

    MARK: So do it for yourself. Beauty is important, Frank. It gives us hope.

    FRANK: I don’t know. I don’t know where it would get me.

    MARK: Yeah. Right. You don’t need anybody to keep you down because you got your own little inner fascist right there telling you what you can and cannot do. That’s how you let them win.

    I wrote about The Man in the High Castle more generally after it debuted. Though I stopped watching after two seasons, these and other moments stuck with me ever since and resurfaced in my mind recently when I read Eliot Stein’s new book Custodians of Wonder: Ancient Customs, Profound Traditions, and the Last People Keeping Them Alive. It’s a travelogue that spotlights artisans and specialists all over the world who have continued practicing their often incredibly arduous crafts, often with great sacrifice, even as modern life has rendered them obsolete.

    From the world’s last nightwatchman in Sweden to an Incan rope bridge master in Peru to a rare pasta maker in Sardinia to the makers of first-surface mirrors in India, these dedicated folks have upheld traditions passed down often within a single family for centuries or even longer. How? And why? According to Paola Abraini, the Sardinian grand master of su filindeu pasta:

    It’s a matter of principle, of tradition. What I have always said is that as a custodian of this tradition that has been passed down from mother to daughter, I will respect that. My daughters know how much of an undertaking this is for me, but they know how much I love it, so as long as the good Lord gives me health and life, I will continue to make it. I remain hopeful that one of them will one day take it on, but if they can’t, then I will be sad. So many things in this world that once were no longer are.

    Stein writes that Abraini’s parting message “felt like a prophecy, a pressing reminder to cherish the beautiful, gentle customs that make the world glimmer while warning us not to blink.”

    Guardians in the darkness

    Perhaps you can see why learning about these remarkable people brought to mind Mark in The Man in the High Castle, who continued the practices he considered meaningful despite the societal forces allayed against him. He continued to cherish the customs that made his world glimmer and lived out his assertion that beauty is important. Though the traditions documented in the book aren’t outlawed like Judaism in The Man in the High Castle, they require the same dedication to uphold—to hold fast against the entropy of modernity and relentless advance of technology that would try to make them disappear.

    The book also helped me reckon with what being a custodian means, which is much more meaningful than my reductive view of it as something akin to a school janitor. Knowing the word custodian comes from the Latin for guardian gives it the weight and nobility it deserves. And here’s the thing: custodians of all kinds keep the world going. Where would we be—what would we be—without the people who handcraft pasta, take out the garbage, clean up messes, build vital bridges, and routinely perform so many more acts of preservation and maintenance and care?

    We are all custodians of something or someone, whether in our families, communities, or just our own minds. We must not let the fascists in our government or our inner voice dictate what’s important. Or make us forget that art matters, and that there’s good in this world that’s worth fighting for. (Cue Samwise Gamgee’s speech in Osgiliath.)

    Tend to your garden. Make your art. Do not obey in advance. Find something to hold on to and be its custodian in the darkness.


  • Links of the moment

    An ongoing series

    What the next Beatles album could have looked like if they hadn’t broken up.

    Title design of Best Picture winners and 20th century sci-fi.

    Behind the scenes of Wallace & Gromit: Vengeance Most Fowl.

    Behold the sight and sound of a meteorite strike.

    These videos of a landscaper mowing overgrown lawns are extremely satisfying

    Wikenigma is dedicated to documenting fundamental gaps in human knowledge.

    Hometown discovery news: indigenous dugout canoes as old as the Egyptian pyramids.


  • Of or relating to

    That’s one of my favorite phrases in the English language. Why? It means you’re most likely looking at the definition of a really cool adjective, and as a writer and certified word nerd I live for really cool adjectives.

    A quick perusal of my Cool Words list shows 13 instances of this phenomenal phrase, including:

    • Brumal: of or relating to winter
    • Chthonicof or relating to the underworld
    • Palustrine: of or relating to marshes or fen; marshy
    • Venatic: of or relating to hunting

    I mean, come on.

    You can try this with basically any word related to nature, medicine, or other topics of interest during the Scientific Revolution, when many of these words were first coined or derived from Latin/Greek.

    Why write “snake-like” when you could say anguine? Or “skin-like” when cutaneous is sitting right there? And arenaceous sounds a lot cooler than “sandy”.

    Most of the adjectives on my list I’ve found in the wild while reading something, but it can also work in the reverse. While writing the post about our window prism, I initially thought to describe the rainbow light as lightning-shaped but then wondered if there was a dedicated adjective for that. I searched “of or relating to lightning” and boom: fulminous (“of, relating to, or resembling thunder and lightning”) or fulgurous (“characteristic of or resembling lightning”). I didn’t end up using them but damned if I didn’t add fulgurous to the Cool Words list.


  • Recent Views

    More photography here.

    In early November we visited some friends on their farm in the far exterior of Chicagoland:

    Hat-tip to this payphone that’s just hangin’ in there:

    Sunset from a different farm:

    A song of ice and fog at our local park:

    The view from getting gas at Costco:

    The sun shone kindly upon my wife’s gluten-free blueberry muffins:

    Shadows and signs:


  • Biden his time

    Continuing my tradition of doing a presidential postmortem for the outgoing commander-in-chief (see Bush and Obama and Trump), here are my brief and bumpy thoughts on the brief and bumpy Biden era:

    • In 2020 he was the only candidate who could beat Trump. Not Bernie, not Elizabeth Warren. So the fact that he won both the primary and general election was good for America.
    • He should not have attempted to run for reelection. We’ll never know whether anyone besides him or Harris could have beaten Trump in 2024 amidst the worldwide anti-incumbent wave, but it would have been nice to have a legit primary to find out. Ironically he did become the “bridge” leader he was considered to be, except instead of bridging towards the next generation of liberal leadership, he was just a rather rickety interlude between two sides of Trumpland.
    • On the personal front, the last four years have been thoroughly domestic affairs for us—trying for and having a second kid being the main focus throughout. Related to that was my choice after the 2020 election to step back from posting about politics here (as the politics tag shows), since I went into overdrive during the Trump years. I could go down the line rating Biden’s policies and accomplishments since then (👍🏻 to supporting Ukraine, exiting Afghanistan, and signing the Electoral Count Act), but that’s moot at this point.
    • Enjoy your retirement, I guess (and your Trans Am).

  • Take a look, it’s in the Book Notes

    I’ve always enjoyed taking notes on my reading—both fiction and nonfiction—mostly to track factoids and save interesting quotes for reference. For a while those notes lived in a plain text doc, then a Google Doc, then WorkFlowy. After briefly pondering setting up a dedicated subdomain for them and turning each book’s notes into their own post, I opted to just put them all on one page called Book Notes.

    It’s a beast of a page, representing 130+ books and ranging from only a few bullets per book to dozens. But being text-only means it’s pretty lightweight, and I added a Table of Contents and jump links to make navigating it a little easier.

    I’ve found the funnest way to experience it is by searching for keywords to see where they pop up in different contexts: try “trees” or “truth” or “books” and see where they lead you. Or just scroll at whim and enjoy the ride through my scattered yet very satisfying survey through the books that have nourished my mind and soul throughout my adult life.


  • Read the meeting minutes

    If you’re looking to get more involved in your local community, there’s a quick and easy way to start doing that: read the meeting minutes.

    Your city’s government, library, school board, and other institutions are required by law to post their meeting agendas, minutes, and other reports online, and I’ve found that even just skimming them is a great way to see what issues are being discussed and decided on, what different initiatives and changes are coming, and other stuff that’s often boring but also affects my everyday life—good and bad—more than national and global politics do. Don’t worry about reading every document—just know that they’re there and can help you be better informed. 


  • Let there be lights

    My wife recently got a little solar-powered prism for our backyard window that starts rotating once it’s charged up with enough sunlight. This has given sunny mornings an extra little burst of magic with little rainbows streaming around the room, one of which I managed to capture as it dashed right next to one of the can lights:

    The contrasts proved, uh, illuminating: artificial vs. natural light, smooth vs. textured, circular vs. streaked.


  • That poor little tree

    Ken Priebe on why A Charlie Brown Christmas works so well:

    There are so many reasons why this perennial special from 1965 shouldn’t work. It’s weird, sloppy, has no real plot, its storyline meanders all over the place, and it feels like it was edited with a chainsaw. …

    And yet, this is exactly why it works, and why it endures. Because Christmas is weird. It’s sloppy. It has no real plot. Its storyline meanders all over the place. It leaves us feeling like our lives have been edited by a chainsaw and we’re on an animation cel that’s not even lined up to match our background. …

    And why is everyone so mean-spirited in this special? How does that reflect the spirit of Christmas? Because it reflects what the season reveals about us. We’re “supposed to be happy, but we’re not.” We’re all rude little bastards who yell at each other, eat like pigs and only care about ourselves. …

    It endures because we are part of the story. We are all that poor little tree that just needs a little love.


  • Favorite Books of 2024

    It would be more accurate to title this post merely “Books I Read in 2024” because man oh man did I slack on reading this year. Long gone is my 80+ per year pace (pre-kids, crucially), replaced by not even hitting double digits. There are various reasons for this, but suffice it to say I hope to significantly raise that number in 2025.

    Here’s what I did read and enjoy in 2024:

    • BoyMom: Reimagining Boyhood in the Age of Impossible Masculinity by Ruth Whippman
    • A Brief History of Motion: From the Wheel, to the Car, to What Comes Next by Tom Standage
    • Catch and Kill: Lies, Spies, and a Conspiracy to Protect Predators by Ronan Farrow
    • Creating Back to the Future The Musical by Michael Klastorin
    • Fear Not!: A Christian Appreciation of Horror Movies by Josh Larsen
    • The Infernal Machine: A True Story of Dynamite, Terror, and the Rise of the Modern Detective by Steven Johnson
    • Long Island by Colm Tóibín
    • The Notebook: A History of Thinking on Paper by Roland Allen

  • Links of the moment

    An ongoing series

    Uncovering the mystery of the forbidden photos of Nazi-occupied Paris.

    The chilling sound of the Aztec death whistle. [Trigger warning: it’s creepy AF!]

    One dad’s collection of hundreds of VHS tapes with beautifully hand-drawn labels.

    Looney Tunes but just the backgrounds.

    A nice interactive history of Notre-Dame cathedral in honor of its post-fire restoration.

    French archaeologists discovered a message-in-a-bottle from 1825.


  • 2024 in review

    See previous year in review posts.

    My view from the end of all things 2024:

    A red-tailed hawk plopped itself on our backyard power line this morning, making for a colorful breakfast companion on an otherwise gloomy New Year’s Eve. May we all seek to achieve its steady serenity in 2025.

    A few highlights from the year:

    • This blog turned 18 and I wrote some posts on:
    • Did fun stuff as a family:
      • Went to our local zoo, arboretum, and forest preserves
      • Watched the solar eclipse
      • Spent Independence Day at the family’s beach cottage in Michigan
      • Did a staycation overnight in downtown Chicago for a friend’s wedding, exploring the River North neighborhood and trekking to The Bean
      • Stayed at Timber Ridge Lodge in Lake Geneva for the weekend with my family
      • Went trick-or-treating in Wild Kratts style: the boys were Chris and Martin, my wife was Aviva, and I was Zach
    • Did fun stuff with the 5 year old:
      • Classes for soccer, gymnastics, track & field, and fishing
      • Went to a minor league baseball game
      • Spotted a coyote on a suburban street on our way home from the park
      • Went to a mini golf birthday party
    • Did a bunch of stuff for Cinema Sugar, including:
    • Noted some choice quotes from the 5 year old, including:
      • “This bonfire is like a waving hand. I could stare at it every day forever.”
      • “It smells like days I remember.”
      • [to his baby brother] “Don’t distract me, this is one yummy taco.”
      • [about the toilet he just flushed] “It was as dirty as a mud puddle but now it’s as clean as a diamond.”
    • Acquired Criterion Blu-rays of Double Indemnity, Badlands, Days of Heaven, and Paper Moon
    • Read 9 books and watched 87 movies
    • Watched probably the least amount of TV in my life, sticking with just three excellent limited series (Masters of the Air, OJ: Made in America, and Midnight Mass) and one mediocre season (The Bear season 3)
    • Held a garage sale and made $52
    • Hosted my cousin’s daughter from New Zealand
    • Got my first new winter boots in a long time

  • Gotta catch ‘em all, I guess?

    Somehow the 5 year old has gotten really into Pokémon. He’s never seen the show nor the cards nor the video game, so it must have been from a friend or kid at the playground.

    Though I was at the prime age of 12 when it exploded globally and was all the rage among my peers, I never got into it myself. As such, I’ve been rather bewildered now as an adult reading the different character guides and books that are full of names and powers and regions and whoseewhatsees that just wouldn’t appeal to me otherwise. But I’m trying to be a curious elder and follow his interests along with him, knowing full well he (probably) won’t be into Pokémon forever.


  • My sons’ media of the moment

    A spinoff of an ongoing series

    Yotos and Tonies. All day every day. Seriously great screen-free stories, learning, and music for the 5 year old, and something to hold and play with for the 18 month old. Great holiday gifts too for the parents/kids in your life.

    Card games. The 5 year old has gotten big into Uno and enjoyed learning others like Old Maid and Slapjack. It’s been fun to watch his strategy evolve to the point where I don’t even have to consider letting him win since he wins plenty on his own.

    Board games. While at the library a while back with the 5 year old, on a lark we sat down at their public chess board and I started teaching him the basics. He was hooked, so we got our own teaching set for home. Strategic thinking for chess has taken longer to develop but he’ll get there.

    Books. The 18 month old’s current favorites: The Shape of Me and Other Stuff by Dr. Seuss, Find the Duck by Stephen Cartwright, Moimoi—Look At Me! by Jun Ichihara, and more. The 5 year old’s current favorites: the InvestiGators comics series, Pokémon character books, and a variety of library picture books.

    The Wild Kratts theme song. Obviously we still watch the show itself often, since it’s usually the 5 year old’s pick for his limited screentime. But for some reason the 18 month old really loves the theme song, so when he gets upset while in the car (which is often), we’ll play a YouTube video that plays the song over and over again. Shoutout to whomever made that video!


  • Links of the moment

    An ongoing series

    How the Pulp Fiction poster became a dorm room staple.

    The first Zoom meeting happened in 1916.

    Humanity’s first interstellar transmission turns 50.

    Find the net elevation—i.e. the height difference between their birth and death place—of dead people.

    Memento Movi is a cinematic progress bar for your life.


  • A giddy mass of waltzing things

    A quote about the earth from Orbital by Samantha Harvey:

    It’s not peripheral and it’s not the centre; it’s not everything and it’s not nothing, but it seems much more than something. It’s made of rock but appears from here as gleam and ether, a nimble planet that moves three ways—in rotation on its axis, at a tilt on its axis, and around the sun. This planet that’s been relegated out of the centre and into the sidelines—the thing that goes around rather than is gone around, except for by its knobble of moon. This thing that harbours we humans who polish the ever-larger lenses of our telescopes that tell us how ever-smaller we are. And we stand there gaping. And in time we come to see that not only are we on the sidelines of the universe but that it’s of a universe of sidelines, that there is no centre, just a giddy mass of waltzing things, and that perhaps the entirety of our understanding consists of an elaborate and ever-evolving knowledge of our own extraneousness, a bashing away of mankind’s ego by the instruments of scientific enquiry until it is, that ego, a shattered edifice that lets light through.


  • Top 50 Movies of the 21st Century

    I’m very proud to share this list of Cinema Sugar’s Top 50 Movies of the 21st Century, something the team has worked on for months in anticipation of celebrating our favorite films from the last quarter century.

    Please take a look (and share with other movie lovers!) for my short thoughts on Palm Springs, Lord of the Rings, Arrival, WALL-E, and a bunch of other movies dear to my heart.

    We also picked our favorites in different subcategories. Here are mine…

    Favorite film scores:

    • Lord of the Rings, Howard Shore
    • The Social Network, Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross
    • The Village, James Newton Howard
    • Interstellar, Hans Zimmer
    • Brokeback Mountain, Gustavo Santaolalla

    Favorite theatergoing experiences:

    • Seeing Toy Story 3 with college friends right after graduation
    • Dressing up with high school friends to see Ocean’s Twelve
    • Seeing Her with my then-girlfriend (now wife) and discussing it afterward
    • Going blindly into—and getting blindsided by—The LEGO Movie
    • Getting sucked into the whirlwind of The Florida Project

    Favorite performances:

    • Brooklynn Prince, The Florida Project
    • Daniel Day-Lewis, Lincoln
    • Brendan Gleeson, Calvary
    • David Oyelowo, Selma
    • Florence Pugh, Little Women

  • Writes and thinks

    Excerpts (though you should read the whole thing) from Paul Graham’s dissection of writes and write-nots:

    The reason so many people have trouble writing is that it’s fundamentally difficult. To write well you have to think clearly, and thinking clearly is hard.

    And yet writing pervades many jobs, and the more prestigious the job, the more writing it tends to require.

    These two powerful opposing forces, the pervasive expectation of writing and the irreducible difficulty of doing it, create enormous pressure. 

    Not anymore. AI has blown this world open. Almost all pressure to write has dissipated. You can have AI do it for you, both in school and at work.

    Is that so bad? Isn’t it common for skills to disappear when technology makes them obsolete? There aren’t many blacksmiths left, and it doesn’t seem to be a problem.

    Yes, it’s bad. The reason is something I mentioned earlier: writing is thinking. In fact there’s a kind of thinking that can only be done by writing.

    So a world divided into writes and write-nots is more dangerous than it sounds. It will be a world of thinks and think-nots. I know which half I want to be in, and I bet you do too.